Throwback KOREA.

I’m glad that ny darling pal Stephanie has landed safely in Busan a few hours ago. She, and the other exchange kids have most probably arrived in Daegu by now, and probably getting settled. Cozying up in blankets and all. I was in the same foreign exchange program last year, and now I’m like.. Has it already been a year?

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It’s a shame that my memory card got corrupted before I got to upload everything. Two weeks’ worth of pictures? My goodness! Luckily, I still have the ones that actually count. Yay for that! I won’t be talking that much about the internship, as I’ve already given it my all at an old post on my old blog (I may or may not link it), and given the nature of this blog, which is pretty much fixated on randomness, I’d rather just talk about the little things.:) besides, I don’t want to be so cruel as to ruin the surprise for her.

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It was quite a challenge dressing up for Korean winter. Although I live in tropical climate, I have experienced a nice winter when I was little.. Just not -2°C ones. In the Philippines, I just dress up in sheer stuff, but in Korea, I had to pile it on! 3 pairs of socks in one go level. Haha.

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I had almost forgotten about the washing machine! Everything was written in Korean, so it really took time for us to figure out how to use it!

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So I’m guessing this is Nuno sa Punso: Korean Edition? This is probably where little Korean dwarves live.

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Stephanie SHOULD see these padlock things! It symbolizes a couple’s promise to stat together. Well, I didn’t have a guy with me then, not in the Philippines, and more so, not in Korea. If I had, I would’ve locked a padlock there as well! Haha.

I miss Korea, but of course, there’s so much of the world to see. Looking back, and knowkng that it’s Stephanie’s turn, I can’t help but be happh for her. I can’t help but be excited for all the cool things in store for her. Korea was fun for me, and I just know that it would be just as fun, or even more, for her.

If Miss Guitering is reading, well..
ENJOY, MY DARLING!:)

LET THE NERVOUSNESS BEGIN.

I want to think that I’m not one to be excited about every little thing, but who in the world am I kidding– I’m way excited.. and nervous.

I’ve been thinking about the IDEM-APDSA Programme a lot. It’s not the first time I was like this though– I was just as psychotic when I was applying for Jambore Pemuda Indonesia. This is different though. This has an element of Dentistry.

I honestly don’t know how many people from the Philippines applied. Looking at the APDSA past events, it’s seems that UP students have always been The Chosen Ones. If I get in, I really want to represent CEU well, so that the global community could see CEU kids as stand-outs in programs and activities like that. I’m not a Top of the Pops student, and I think it’s important that the dental community acknowledges the existence of students who aren’t exactly the best of the best. We academic wallflowers have a lot to give too.:)

Well anyway, the results will be out on January 9. Miss Berghoff posted a message on the Facebook group. It kind of made me nervous all over again. Then again, I love Miss Berghoff! She has that fun-loving aura.:)
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It’s only then when I’ll find out if I had gotten in or not. I’m impossibly nervous about it– it makes me wonder if I just have a surplus of crazy nerves, making me EXTRA nervous. Well, it’s a little bit less than a week of waiting, I’ll get through.:)

This is just so exciting!:)

Deadline. Deadline. Deadline.

The deadline for the IDEM-APDSA Program is in on SUNDAY.

Student Leader. People would probably call me a poser for applying to a “Student Leader” program, when I’m not even a school-based or university-based organization officer this year. My credentials from the previous years have given me guts to embark on this, but then again, I’ve become a National Youth Commission kid this year, being that I was sent to Indonesia as a Philippine Contingent to the Jambore Pemuda Indonesia 2013. I’m confident in what that accounts for.

Sometimes, we just have to realize that leadership isn’t confined to what goes on inside the university. I feel that the true leadership extends out into the world where nobody knows us, but we still choose to do relevant things.

Do I miss leadership in CEU? Yes I do. Of course I do. If you’d ask me if I want to go back, I’d probably pass on that. I don’t want my values compromised. I’ve been starting to feel that my previous political arena has turned so “elitist”, that I can’t ride with it anymore without feeling disloyal to my crazy self. I don’t like closed doors, so I guess it’s just right that I keep that same old principle I’ve always had when it comes to leadership, that, having “everywhere” as my “office”. I don’t belong in my old arena anymore, it no longer jives with my ideals. It’s only right that I’ve taken my skills nationally (and I guess, internationally) and that’s something I’m definitely happy about.

I used to be a big fish in a small pond. Sure, it was awesome to be there, but sometimes we’re given the challenge to take whatever circumstance we have and turn it to something wonderful. Some fish were meant to swim, and I really thought that I was one of those fish. I had no idea that I’d be caught, cut up to pieces, fried, and then served on a plate. I know that my predicament isn’t ideal, but it’s the way I was meant to give people the best of who I am. Come to think of it, I’m getting closer to a certain level of self-actualization, and sincerely, there’s nothing more ideal than that.

REFLECTIONS and REVISIONS.

Today, I went through my IDEM essay again. I told myself that if I were to alter it, then it better be my first and last. I read it through and through, and my goodness, it seriously did not sound like me. I think I was just having a bad day when I wrote it. It was so dry and seemingly un-thought of. It didn’t give justice to who I am as a Dentistry student. The only thing about me that it gave justice to was my being a reklamadora, and that, most definitely, is not something I’m proud of.

I did a little reflection while deciding what to write. I had to ask myself the tough questions—What do I care about? Why am I doing this? What are my ambitions in Dentistry? No, really, what are my ambitions in Dentistry (yung totoo)? I gave myself time to breathe, and yes. The answers came out.

I pretty much re-did my IDEM essay, this time, according to what my gut told me. I wanted to add something unique to Dentistry in the Philippines, so I injected a little bit of Dental Jurisprudence, which was no problem at all, because I love Dental Jurisprudence anyway. Major props to soon-to-be Attorney, Dr. Maria Luta Cueto!:)

I had to re-acquaint myself with Community Dentistry, but unlike what I did with the Dental Jurisprudence injection, I didn’t use my school notes. Instead, I relied on DOH downloads for inspiration. I learned a few new things as well, such as the fact that PDA sent out a memo prohibiting extraction during dental missions to avoid cross-contamination and post-op infection. It kind of puzzled me a bit, but I know I can always look for answers.

When people are asked what their ambitions are, it should be easy. In my case, it was really thought-provoking. Truly, I was stumped. A few moments later, I realized that the only reason I was stumped was that I was scared. I started to resent myself because I seemed to have been ready to give up on what my dreams really are because of fear. I wrote away, and realized that no matter how scary the future is, I still have to be my #1 fan.

I gave myself a cold, hard look. I’ve reflected, reflected, and reflect. My essay’s pretty much revised now, and it’s ready to be sent. What’s next to do is to revise my outlook in live, and soon enough, I’ll be ready to win the world over.

Fear.

I’ve been told multiple times that my destiny is not in the Philippines. Funny, because I never really pictured myself working elsewhere. I’ve imagined studying abroad for my MScD, but being “Dr. FT” has never really sat in well.

I’ve been looking at interesting stuff. I had to pass on applications to Nepal and Mügla because of schedule conflicts. But this? This is different. This fits right in. This is for me.

In exactly two weeks, I will have had submitted my application to my third ever international “thing”. I’m having serious doubts about whether or not I should still send my application. More than anything, I’m afraid of not making the cut.

Many times, I try to think of myself as a daredevil, but this time, I’m just really scared!

Well, I still have a few things left to do for my application..
[ ] Edit my essay.
[ ] Process replacement certificates.
[ ] Find my missing certificate from the Air Force.
[ ] GET A PICTURE TAKEN.

I know I’m being really vague about this. It’s not that I don’t want to share or anything, it’s just that.. I’m not ready for mass disappointment in case I don’t make it.