BIRTHDAY (MINI) HAUL!

I can’t really call this that much of a Beauty Haul, but.. Whatever. I bought beauty stuff on my birthday. That’s all.

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For someone so in love with The Body Shop, I’m quite weirded out by myself not buying anything from my favorite shop in the world, considering that I have a 20% discount for the whole month of January from being a Love Your Body card holder. Oh wells. I figured it was about time that I branch out in to the new world. There’s more to the world than The Body Shop, I guess.

I bought the ETUDE HOUSE Lip & Eye Remover. It’s the type of remover that reminds me of vinaigrette salad dressings in a sense that it demonstrates the rules of polarity, being that it’s half-oil, and half-not oil. I think it’s good to have makeup removers like that, because some makeup just doesn’t get off with “regular” removers, as they contain a significant amount of healthy oils. You need something that can dissolve the water-soluble and the water-INsoluble. It’s actually good at removing makeup– and I tried that even with mascara. Skin feels great afterwards.:)

I found the PORE EVER Primer Stick (Etude House) quite so-so. I’ve barely used primer before, so I didn’t really know what to expect from it. I wish it held my eyeshadow a little bit better, but of course, I may have just applied too little of it. My face make-up stayed on, so I guess that’s an awesome plus.

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Another cute thing from Etude House was the Sweet Recipe Cupcake All-Over Color. Behold my newly-found love for multipurpose make-up! I used this on my cheeks and my lips. It gave me the nude lip look that I was aiming for. This isn’t really a balm though, and I just seriously feel the need to exfoliate now.

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Would you believe that I’ve finally given in to liquid eyeliner? I’ve been fearing it for YEARS. I’m still a bit shaky in applying it, but I think I can get better at it with time. I’m learning by watching lots and lots of Jenn Im videos, and I think I’d most likely be doing baby cat-eyes. I’m quite happy with my NATURE REPUBLIC Botannical Quickeasy Liner. I could’ve gone for Smashbox, but I decided to go for something less expensive while I practice.
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I’m happy with the tiny brush. I find it easy to control with just the right amount of stiffness.

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Last is the PALLADIO Rice Powder. I have serious problems with the packaging, as I just know that I’m gonna end up spilling the powder all over the place if I’m not careful. It’s a good product though. I see it as a good setting powder, and it really does control oil like it’s supposed to. I’m definitely not gonna use the the sponge applicator, but more likely a small fan brush.

Well yeah, that’s all for my Birthday Mini-Haul. Just a few things here and there. It’s funny how I’m 23, but have make-up wants and needs comparable to that of a 15-year old! Haha. Well, I guess that’s one of the things about getting older– you get so sure about other things, that your attention to little details is far less than what you imagined it to be way back when you were a teenager.

I’m learning a lot about myself through my make-up.
And yes, they’re good things.

It’s January 26 now, but it’s still January 25 in some parts of the world. I’m a citizen of the universe, so no matter what time it is over at my timezone.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

THE RUN.

I’m really excited about my GREAT ESCAPE of 2014. I think about it excessively, and I’ve been talking a lot to Dr. Esporlas about it. I know that this is something that would fuel insane rumors from drug addiction, to a relationship with a professor (possibly even a female one), to committing a major violation. The list will go on and on and on. The old me would think about the horrible possibilities and would just stop considering it, but I think I now know myself a little better, and I might not care anymore.

I know that what I’m about to do can be considered borderline insane, especially for someone so close to graduating, but you know what?– I think settling for anything less than an awesome day constitutes far greater insanity. Truth is, I don’t like being the person I have grown up to be, living a life that I didn’t choose in the first place. It was my choice to do what I’m doing, but where I’m doing it is a completely different story. Gone are the days when I’d try to compensate the flat days with artificial forms of happiness, because I’ve now learned of the joys of simplicity.

I stared hatred and negativity right in the face, and looking back, it’s no way to live. I don’t want to participate in a very cut-throat competition for resources anymore, I don’t want to waste time anymore, I don’t want to be idle anymore. In a very wild attempt to be concise, I don’t want to be miserable anymore.

Oh, also, I’m through stepping on other people to get the illusion of being ahead. Being the bully gives off an unexplainable hormone rush that makes you just feel so powerful and cool, but once norepinephrine sets in, shame introduces itself, and you start to wonder why you needed that validation in the first place.

I feel the need to be somewhere filled with love, with people doing what they do not because they have to, but because they want to. A loving environment gives birth to little bundles of sheer passion– and that’s exactly how I want to roll.

BEAUTY PAGEANTS AND STUFF.

I remember once in an international youth activity in Samarinda wherein one of my Indonesian sister dearests asked me why beauty pageants are so popular in the Philippines. I was seriously stumped by the question, and I really wish I had a better answer to that than, “It’s because we are so beautiful.”. Sometimes I really do wonder why. It’s not like all Filipinos are towering statues sent by the heavens to spread beauty to the world. It’s not all about the celebrity culture either, because these pageant ladies are the real deal. The unity of beauty and brains is taken to a whole new level, and it’s a level worth paying great attention to; with that being said, I believe that the very essence of the popularity of beauty pageants in the Philippines stems from having a good example to look up to.

My school, Centro Escolar Univeristy, has this annual pageant, Mr. & Miss CEU. I hate to brag, but almost every year, at least one contestant from the School of Dentistry bag a title (or two). In 2010, Jeselle Vyne Vinoya bagged the Miss CEU 2010 title. 2012 gave the prestigious title to Chloe Ann Joy Miranda. 2013 was another awesome year, as Barbara Leigh Ignacio bagged the Miss CEU 2013 First Runner-Up title. Truly, it has, and will always be an honor to be friends with ladies of inner and outer beauty. I have always been proud to witness the embodiment of grace and intelligence in these ladies.

This year, I’m proud to say that I have a friend competing in the pageant again. This is none other than Kristel Guelos. I first met her in 2008, as we were classmates in one of our Pre-Dent subjects. I was really stuck by her beauty, from the first time I saw her. Of course, time has been good to her, as she has seemingly getting more and more beautiful as the years went by. Her name may ring a few bells here and there, because she has already competed in one of the country’s major pageants, as she represented Tanauan City in the 2013 Miss Earth Philippines pageant.
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Let me tell you about Kristel. She’s a very warm, loving and grounded person. She relates well with pretty much everyone. It’s really easy to grow fond of someone who can be well-described as a burst of warm sunshine that can brighten up anyone’s day. She epitomizes values expected of a God-loving individual, which include kindness, humanism, and concern for the common good. Of course I’d love to go on and on about Kristel, but sometimes actually getting to know the person is far better than counting on words alone.

I really hope that CANDIDATE #10, Kristel Guelos, School of Dentistry takes home the title of MISS CEU 2014.

There may never be enough words to describe how much I would love her to win, but sometimes, all we have to say is that when your queen stands right there in front of you, there won’t be any room for doubts. You would just know.:)

Oh, by the way, there will be an ONLINE VOTING, as a segment of the pageant. This is not limited to CEU students.
I strongly encourage all those who can read this to vote for Kristel Guelos by first hitting “LIKE“, on the CEU University Student Council Manila Facebook Page, and finding the photo of CANDIDATE #10 Kristel Guelos, and then hitting “LIKE” on that as well.
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Not Making It.

The IDEM-APDSA SLP didn’t work out for me. I’m quite bummed about that.
For lack of a better word, I kind of feel like poo.:(

I talked about this with Noelle last night, and she told me to just let it go. I had a “Frozen” moment and started humming “Bebaskan“, haha. Noelle said that maybe destiny wanted me to give chances to others. In 2013 alone, I got sent by my university to Korea, and then by the National Youth Commission to Indonesia. Noelle said that I probably wouldn’t have crazy fun there, so it could be why it wasn’t given to me. Well yeah, I think she was right.:)

Of course, I talked to my guy friends too. Tan Wen and I had a massive exchange of emoticons, and truly, Pusheen the Cat was abused. Oh man, TW made me feel a lot better! ..although I do feel the need to upgrade my Facebook Messenger emote library. My brother-from-another-motherland, Jackson was a bit sad too. He told me not to be so sad anymore and that there’d be more opportunities around. Of course, that meant so much coming from a co-JPI alumni.

Norman was out at dinner with his NS friend, Leonard, so as much as I wanted to talk to him the moment I found out, I had to wait for him to get on Skype. Before I got to tell him, he kind of already knew. He sent me a YouTube link to “Let It Go”– yes, the Frozen theme. The same one described when I was talking to Noelle. It’s kind of heartwarming when your best friend and your darling have pretty much the same line of thinking when it comes to dispensing advice. Norman was really sweet to me last night, that he even helped me with shoes at Zalora (retail therapy).

When people have great disappointments, I tell them that maybe the world isn’t ready for the greatness they are yet to show. I wonder if I should listen to my own advice, or if I should get real and accept that I’m damn weak, haha! Then again, my mom once said that fate is always fair and just, and that sometimes, we don’t recognize the good return when it comes back, because of how much it has grown. This is one disappointment. The only thing I can look forward to is what is yet to come.

Oh, by the way, I had a mini-realization.
Talked to four people about this. Of those four people, three are Singaporean.
So it’s kind of okay that I didn’t get to make the cut to Singapore this time.. because I have little pieces of Singapre in my heart anyway. Now, the only thing left to do is to get them to be obsessed with their teeth.:)

UNDER PRESSURE, OVERWEIGHT.

I have been being under an insurmountable amount of self-disgust for quite some time now. I’ve actually been feeling somewhat bullied to lose weight and get thinner. It’s really irritating, honestly, then again, I can’t argue with anyone, because they’re probably right.
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I really don’t understand why my figure gets so much attention. It’s not like I was ever really bonesy or what. I don’t think I was ever really known for good looks. I just wonder why it’s now that I’m having trouble keeping my figure in check, that I get noticed. Some of them probably mean well, but there’s still part of me that dislikes the attention.

I have a very saddening BMI. I think it’s about 28 or 29. Yes, it falls under overweight, but somehow I feel peer pressured as thought I’m obese.

I can defend myself all I want, but it has gotten quite tiring after some point. Even before all the holiday hams came along, I’ve already been having trouble with my weight. It’s a bit draggy explaining how weight gain was a side effect of medicine for sad neuropeptides, and that I have an endocrine condition that lists “obesity” as a manifestation (KILLER COMBO. Of course.); but after a while, it wasn’t difficult for me to wonder if I really owe anybody explanations.

Isn’t it ironic that my frustration towards my weight is what actually drives me to eat more? My doctor said that it’s a sign of depression. It’s a vicious cycle that seriously has no end! My goodness. It’s irritating. All I want is a nice and happy relationship with food– THAT’S ALL.

When I think about it, I don’t have that big of a problem with my size.
I just wonder why everybody else does.

Christmas LAUGHTRIP MOMENT.

Sometimes really compulsive about details. Like majorly. Unfortunately, my attention to detail also decided to take a holiday along with everything else. What exactly am I talking about?

Let’s rewind to about two weeks ago..
I did my holiday shopping, I mentioned buying my friends’ Christmas presents at Yves Rocher. They put the items in adorable little gift bags, so all I had to do to figure out what was inside was to peek inside to figure out which present went to who. Easy peasy. That was settled.

I shopped for my siblings a few days later. I have two sisters and a brother. Shopping for my brother was relatively easy. I saw something, and thought, “That’s the one..”. Surprisingly, it was with my sisters that I had trouble shopping for. After much thought, I decided to get their presents at Beauty Bar. I got my eldest sister a tube of Bloom Lipgloss, while for my second older sister, Bloom Eyeliner in green. I had them wrapped at the store.

Today when I checked up on their presents with the intention of writing on the cards so I can give them at midnight, I realized something– The two things were wrapped identically, and I have no way to figure out which one is which. Hahahahaha.

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Feeling it would work, but the problem is, they pretty much feel the same, except for a slight difference in size (I don’t know which is which). Haha.

I can’t imagine my eldest sister in green eyeliner; my older sister won’t wear pink lip gloss.. I better not screw up my gifts, because I actually spent time at the store thinking hard for their presents! I guess I should just rely on pure guesswork.

Hula-hulaan na lang. Hehehe.

My life is so boring that random things like this cause me much entertainment.
Truly, attention to detail has taken a holiday. Bow.

THE BODY SHOP All-In-One BB Cream.

It’s strange how I’ve just written a post about creams one morning, with me mentioning The Body Shop All-In-One BB Cream, and then being back a few hours later with my own tube. I guess it just goes to show how decisive I am about BB cream. After all, when you know, you just know.:)

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I’m a Shade 02. I’m not too white, not too dark. I fall right in the middle, just like an average Southeast Asian girl. I heard that the European market sells it to shade 00. Thank God I didn’t see it, or else I would’ve become insecure.

When you put some on, the cream doesn’t look homogenous. It looks white with little brown speckles, but when you start manipulating it with your fingers, it becomes a whole new shade of sun-kissed tan. The color gets prettier the more you manipulate the cream, and the more it gets absorbed. I guess you can attribute that to the pigment capsules that get released upon application to the skin, but it totally wasn’t what I was expecting, even after reading “COLOUR-ADAPTING” on the tube. It seemed a bit like magic, I should say.

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I’m really not used to spending a lot on skincare and cosmetics; in fact, it took me some time to actually decide to get this one. I don’t normally splurge, really. It’s just that I’m getting ready to jump off to better products now that I understand my face better, and I make it a point to actually take care of my skin now. Deciding to invest was difficult, but I seem to find solace in the fact that I made the right choice.